Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Brownsville Tales - Jordan, 3

(Last one. Seriously, what do you think People? I'm trying to keep these stories brief, but is this too easy?)

He'd only been there for a minute when a shadow fell on him. He looked up, squinting at the sunshine, and Jordan was looking down at him, (which made a change).

“Jordan?”

“Hi. Can I sit here with you?”

“Well, yeah,” he looked around. “But where are your bodyguards? They might not like it.”

“Maybe not, but I would and they can get lost for now.”

“For now?”

“Yeah.” He sat down next to him.

Dillon moved forward and down a step so they were nearer being on the same level. “I don't think your friends would approve. They don't like me.”

“But I do, I think. Why wouldn't you stop and talk to me this morning. Are you off me already?”

“No, I'm not off you. I quite like you really, but your friends don't like me. I didn't want to start the day with them all jumping on me again, so I thought it's best if I just stay away.”

“You did, did you? What about me? Aren't I allowed to chose who I want to be friends with?”

“It doesn't look like you are, the way they bunch around you and keep everyone else away all the time.”

“They do get a bit possessive, don't they?” Jordan shrugged like it didn't matter. But it did!

“Just a bit!” Dillon snorted. “They make me feel like a criminal and just because I wanted to talk to you.”

“Yeah well, they're good mates and they've got their reasons.”

“Yeah? So do you think I'd want to hurt you?”

“I don't. I hope not anyway. They don't know you, so they're suspicious; they're suspicious of everyone.”

“There's no need for that. I mean, you're little but you're not defenceless, are you. Sheesh, anyone would think I was trying to rape you!” Dillon was talking himself angry again.

Jordan looked down at the ground in front of them. “That's been tried before,” he said quietly. “The Five try to make sure it doesn't happen again.”

“Shit, Jordan! Are you saying that you were raped?”

“No, I'm not. I wasn't raped, but I nearly was. A guy had me bailed-up in the changing rooms at the Aquatic Center, Gene and Ashton came in and saved me. That's why they're all like they are now.It's nothing to do with you, they're like that with everyone and they're looking after me.”

“Because you're such a baby you need looking after all the time? Why would they think that everyone wants to rape you?”

“Maybe because I look easy because I'm little. And, there is this.” Jordan held up his left hand and twisted it around, showing the coloured jelly-bracelets on his wrist.

“What, because you wear bracelets? Lots of kids do. I've got a couple myself – doesn't mean anyone wants to rape me.”

“Keep looking, Dillon. Look at the colours, know what they mean?”

“Kind of. I know that each colour is meant to have a meaning, for those that take them seriously. I don't, it's nothing but a scare story to freak parents out.Yellow is for hugging, blue is oral sex and black means all the way sex – that sort of thing.”

“It is that sort of thing. But look at my colours, I've got six of them – red, orange, yellow, green, blue and purple. Doesn't that tell you anything?”

“Not really. Should it?”

“Yes, it should. They're the colours of the rainbow flag. You know what that stands for?”

“Rainbow flag – that's like a gay signal, isn't it?”

“Now you're getting the picture.”

“Damm, Jordan! Are you saying that you're gay?”

“I am. Have you got a problem with that?”

“No, of course I haven't. But why would you wear a signal like that?”

“Pays to advertise,” Jordan grinned. “I think it's subtle, the other don't agree and they want me to stop wearing them, but I'm not. It's my life and I'm proud of who I am.”

“So you should be. So they don't like that you're gay?”

“They don't care about that, they just don't want me advertising it. If I don't, how am I ever going to get a boyfriend?”

“And that's what you're looking for?”

“Yes. Everyone wants someone to love them, don't they?”

“I guess so. I do too. But your Tight Five love you, don't they?”

“Sure they do, but not like that. The guys are more like family.”

“Family? Good luck finding a boyfriend with them in the way.”

“They won't be in the way when it's the right person.”

“And that, obviously, won't be me.” Dillon stood up. “Your friends don't like me, Jordan. It's a wonder they haven't come and taken you away already.”

Jordan said, “I could tell them not to. They don't not like you, they just don't know you.”

“They don't know me and they're never going to, not with the attitudes they've got when they look at me.”

“Forget about them. Do you like me, Dillon? That's what's important. I think I like you a lot and I want to find out more.”

“Really? Sorry but that won't happen. I do like you, I think I could love you, but we're never going to know. You can't forget about your mates, Jordan. They're good friends for you and they have been for a long time. You're lucky to have them, what you've got there is special and you can't throw that away. There's only one of me but there's four of them and they're an important part of your life.

You can't dump them for a possible relationship with me. That's not going to happen, full stop.”

“Are you sure about that?”

“I am very sure about that. I'm not worth it.”

“Well I think you are. What if I tell them that I want you for a boyfriend?”

“It wouldn't make any difference. They don't like me and they wouldn't agree.”

“They'd have to agree! It's none of their business anyway.”

“It is very much their business. Okay, if and when, every one of your Tight Five comes and tells me that's it's okay for us to be together, then we can. Otherwise it's not happening. I'm not going to fight your friends, Jordan. They love you and there's nothing wrong with that.”

“There is if it stops me from being with the one I want. You won't change your mind?”

“I can't, Jordan. I can't and I won't.”

“Okay, I'll go and tell them then. If they say it's okay, then we can?”

“If you want to, yeah. But only if all four of them say it's all right.”

“I'll see you soon. I've got work to do!” Jordan left running.

Dillon smiled ruefully as he watched him go. Yes, he'd like to love him, but he didn't think that could happen. Life wasn't that good.

The Cat came first. She came running up behind him when he was walking home from school.

“Kirkwood – Dillon, wait up! Damm. Where are you going in such a big hurry?”

“Going home,” he shrugged. “What's it to you?”

“I want to talk.”

“Why? I've done nothing.”

“No-one said you had. Jordie told me to come and see you.”

“Well, here I am.”

“Yeah. Jordie says he likes you. Is that right?”

“Shouldn't you be asking him?”

“Well, ah – yes, I guess.” She smiled and things looked better. “How about you? Do you like our Jordan?”

“I do. I think I like him a lot.”

“Jordie is gay. Are you?”

“Probably.”

“Probably? I think you'd know.”

“I've never had a cance to find out, have I?”

“So you want a chance with Jordan?”

“That sounds crude when you put it like that.”

“Well, do you?”

“No, I don't!”

“What do you want then?”

“I want to be his friend. I want to get to know him and to love him, most likely.”

“To most likely love him. That's not much of a commitment.”

“It's all I've got. Look, Cat, I don't really know the boy. I'd never even spoken to him until we sat up in a tree together at the Sports the other day. I like the look of him and I'd like to get to know him better. I'd like that very much, but I can't.”

“You can't? What's stopping you?”

“You are. You and all the rest of your mates, you won't let anyone get near him.”

“You want to get near him? Why don't you then?”

“Because I can't. I told you, you lot are in the way.”

“Why won't you fight for what you want? You can't want it much if you won't fight for it.”

“I'm not fighting you and the others. You're his friends, good friends, and I'm not fighting against you. If you weren't his mates, I'd fight you all the way, but you are and you all protect him because you love him. That's a good thing and I'm not taking that away from him.”

“Wow. Are you for real?”

“Of course I'm for bloody real. You think I'm standing here lying to you?”

“No. I don't think you are actually. Okay, Dillon Kirkwood, that's good enough for me. For what it's worth, you have my full permission to be with Jordie. I'm warning you though – I love that boy like a brother. More than a brother actually, I can't stand my real brothers. If you ever hurt Jordie, I'll cut your cock off and ram it down your throat!”

“I think you would. If I ever hurt him, I'll let you do that.”

“All right!” she grinned. “You're a good one. Be nice to our boy and we'll be sweet.” She started walking away.

“Cat!” Dillon called after her. “Thanks, Cat. I will be nice, if I get the chance.”

“You'll get a chance. I'm going to see the others to fix it now. 'Bye, Dillon.”

“Bye, Cat.”

He walked home with a big smile on his face. Not a lot had changed, it was only one of the four of them, but it was a start.

Later, he was on the computer in his room, busily wasting time, when there was a knock on the door.

“Yeah?” he called and carried on doing what he was doing. Another knock and he got up and opened the door.

Ashton Morris was there, with Gene Crestani behind him.

“Whoah. Hi.”

“Hey, Dillon. Can we come in?”

“Yeah, of course.” He stepped back and out of the way. “Come in.”

They came into the room and Gene closed the door. Dillon sat back on his computer chair.

“Doesn't look like a gayboy's bedroom.” Ashton looked around.

“I wouldn't know. I don't get around that much,” Dillon replied.

“Yeah. So we hear,” Ashton nodded. “I like your posters. Do you play anything?”

“Only CD's. Look, Guys, you're here about Jordan, so what do you say?”

“To the point, aren't you? All right then, we say 'yes'.”

“Really? You're okay with me being with him?”

“Yes, it's okay. We were wrong about you, I think. As long as you're both in it together, it's okay by us.”

“That goes for both of you? Gene's not saying much.”

“He never does,” Ashton said. “Not until he gets comfortable. He gets a bit whakama, don't you, Genie?”

Gene grinned and nodded.

“Whakama?” Dillon said. “What's that?”

“What's the matter, don't you understand plain Maori?”

“Not a lot, no.”

“It means shy, embarrassed, that sort of thing. I thought everyone knew that. Anyway, that's what our Genie is, so now you know.”

“Now I know. You're okay with me and Jordan, Gene?”

“Yeah, 'sokay,” Gene blushed.

Ashton said, “The usual warnings apply, of course. You hurt our mate and you're dead.”

“I wouldn't hurt him.”

“We'll be watching.”

“I'm sure you will. So, that's three out of the four of you. What does Lucas say, do you know?”

“Yes, we know, but I dunno if you'd want to.”

“Oh? What did he say?”

“He said that you can go fuck yourself and you'll be with Jordie over his dead body.”

“Oh.” Dillon lost the grin. “I guess he's entitled to his opinion. That's the end of that then.”

“That's it?” Gene spoke up at last. “You're giving up just like that?”

“Yeah, just like that. I told Jordan that all four of you had to agree and I meant what I said.”

“Shit!” cried Ashton. “Don't be such a wimp. Go around and poke him on the nose.”

“I'm not doing that. It wouldn't fix anything anyway. That'd just make him not like me even more.”

“You might be right. You probably won't have to worry anyway – the Cat's going to talk to him. He's in trouble now!”

“In trouble?”

“Yeah,” Gene grinned. “The Cat is no pussy-cat.”

“So true!” Ashton agreed. “More like a tiger – a bitchy tiger. Don't ever fight with the Cat, you can't win.”

“I'll take your word for it.”

“Wise man. Okay, we've said what we came to say. C'mon, Gene, we're outta here.”

“Okay. Thanks anyway, Guys.”

“Welcome. See ya.”

That was hopeful, wasn't it? He didn't hear anything more all night and he tried not to worry but, of course, he did. Trust Lucas Breene to mess things up for him. Three out of the Tight Five said that it was okay but not Breene. Stuff him!

What had he ever done to him? Nothing, that's what!

Three out of the four is like 75% approval, which is pretty good really. Maybe he could just forget about Breene and go for it anyway? No, he couldn't. He'd said that every single one of them had to say yes and that hadn't happened. He wouldn't go back on his word. That'd mean that the whole thing was based on a lie and that's not good.

Fuck Lucas Breene! He punched his pillow, but that didn't help. Maybe the Cat would eat him – that'd fix it, sort of.

Walking into the school grounds next day, he looked around. There was no sign of Jordan anywhere and the only one of the Tight Five in sight was – 'Wouldn't you know it?' - Lucas Breene and he was making a bee-line for him.

'Oh well', Dillon sighed. 'Let's get it over and done with then.'

“Kirkwood, I want to talk to you.”

“Talk away, I'm listening.”

“Right. What the hell did you do to the Cat?”

“The Cat? I haven't done anything to her?”

“Yes you have. I dunno what, but you did something.”

“Not that I know of.”

“Yeah, right. The Cat came round to my place last night and she ripped into me like you wouldn't believe.”

“That wasn't my idea. She told me she was going to see you, but I didn't know she'd do that.”

“Well she did, thanks to you.”

“I never asked her to.”

“But she did.”

“I never asked her to. Look, Lucas, it's okay. I know your answer is no and I can respect that.”

“You can? Are you for real?”

“Yes I'm for real. Why do people keep asking me that?”

“Because . . well, because. The guys are saying that you're too good to be true. Are you?”

“I wouldn't know. I'm just trying to do the right thing and do right by Jordan, he deserves that.”

“Bloody Hell! You're too much. Jordie does deserve the best. He's gay, but he's too little and too young for any sort of serious relationship.”

“He doesn't think so and it's up to him really, isn't it? He's not that young, he's 14, the same as I am. I think he might be a bit older than me actually.”

“Maybe, but he's still little. Jordie is tiny and you're too big for him..”

“Jordan told me that he's only little on the outside, and I think he may be right. Anyway, what do you think I'm going to do – rip him in half?”

“You bloody better not, Kirkwood!”

“I wouldn't do that to him. It's not an issue anyway – it's not happening is it?”

“No? Okay, Dillon Kikwood, if that's what you want, and what Jordie wants, well – go for it.”

“You what? Really?? I thought you were dead against him being anywhere near me.”

“I was, but I can change my mind, can't I? I've been lectured at all bloody night long! Not just with the Cat, they've all been on my case. I'm not going to stand in your way.”

“Thanks, Lucas. I . . really . . well, thanks! That's great.”

“All good,” he shrugged. “I love Jordie and if he's going to have a boyfriend, he should have the best.”

“I know you love him, all the Tight Five do, that's what makes you such good friends.”

“Friends be buggered! I really, really love him – not like the others. I love them as friends but I love him much more than that, I always have, for years now and I've waited for him to grow older and old enough. But that's never going to happen, I can see that now.

He loves me, but no more than he loves Ashton, Gene and the Cat. He'll never love me like I love him, so I'm letting go. I'm warning you though – seriously – you mess with Jordie and I'll kill you. I know where the key to Dad's gun cabinet is and I'll use it if I have to and I won't care if they lock me up for life.”

“Damm. You really mean that, don't you?”

“Of course I bloody mean it!”

“You'll never have to worry, I promise you that, Lucas. I'll treasure him and I'll never make him cry – ever.”

“See that you don't.”

“I won't. Thanks. You're a big guy. I hope we can be friends too, despite everything. I'm sorry if I'm taking him away from you.”

“But you're not. Even if you weren't around, he was never going to be mine.”

“Sorry.”

“Yeah, me too. Let's go to school.”

Dillon was way happy. He was on top of the world and grinning all morning, but he never got a chance to talk to Jordan until lunchtime. Anyone would think that they were there to do schoolwork – the teachers did. Damm them.

He caught up with Jordan at lunchtime, or Jordan caught up to him really – he ran up and tackled him from behind.

“What the?” Dillon swung around and grinned at the boy grinning at him. “Jordan!”

“Hey. Come with me, Dillon.” He led the way into the Library, which was always quiet at lunchtime – only a few nerds wanted to be there when they didn't have to.

They walked down to the back and around behind some shelves, where no-one could see them.

“Lucas said we can be together!” Dillon burst-out as soon as they were alone. “That means all of the Tight Five say it's all right.”

“Not all of them,” Jordan replied.

“Yeah they did. The Cat, Ashton and Gene told me yesterday and Lucas did this morning.”

“That's only four of the Five by my counting.”

“Four? Oh, yeah, but the other one is you. Your answer would be 'yes', wouldn't it?” Dillon was worried all of a sudden and his face showed it, but not for long.

Jordan stepped close and looked up at him. He pushed his long and unruly hair back away from his face, put his hands around Dillon's head and pulled him down. “This is my answer,” he whispered.

He kissed him.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Brownsville Tales - Jordan, 2

They dropped down out of the tree, carefully not literally, and went out to rejoin the crowd. Dillon had never done this before, so he just followed Jordan's lead – he'd obviously had lots of practice.

It wasn't so apparent when they were sitting down, but walking together, Dillon was very aware of how much taller than Jordan he was. Side by side, close together, he was looking down at the top of his head, so he kept a distance between them so that he could see his face.

Once they were among the other kids they were hemmed in close together again. Judie Meidama wanted to know where Dillon had been?

“Sitting in the shade,” he shrugged. “It's too damm hot out here.”

“You got that right,” she nodded. “All right for the teachers, slacking in the shade. Marley! Where were you? You weren't hiding in a corner with this one, were you?”

'Not likely!' Dillon thought. He glanced sideways at Jordan, then did a double-take and looked again, properly this time. It wasn't Jordan, it was someone else walking near him. The dark hair was the right colour, but it was a bit short and too high up. This was a taller boy. What was his name?

'Lucas. That's him – Lucas Breene.' Jordan had said that he was one of their 'Tight Five'. Breene was short, but taller than Jordan, of course. No-one was as short as Jordan. Where was he now?

“Looking for someone?” Lucas looked up.

“Yeah,” Dillon replied. “I was talking to Jordan Houston. Where did he go?”

“Back with his mates, where he belongs. You keep away from him, Kirkwood. He doesn't need you hanging around him.”

“What? Hell, I was just talking to the kid.”

“Go and talk to someone else and leave Jordan alone.”

Who did this kid think he was? Dillon was getting pissed. “Think you own him or something?”

“More than you do. Lots of pervs think he's something to play with. Stay away from him and leave him alone, Kirkwood.”

“Or what?”

“Try us and you'll find out.”

“Fuck off, Breene.” Dillon scowled and walked alone, back to school.

Well, that wrecked his day. There's nothing like a prick to deflate a good mood and bring you down. He was sour now. Bloody Breene! Who did he think he was? He wasn't hurting the kid, he was just talking to him!

'Tight Five' huh? Too bloody tight, I think. They don't own him, do they?'

The long trail of hot, sweaty, students trudged their way along the road. Certain people cruised past in their air-conditioned cars. Dillon was not the only one glaring at the teachers and thinking what an easy life they had.

Some people changed out of their sports clothes when they got back to school, but not many bothered – the day was over anyway. They sorted their books and gear and went home. At last.

Outside the main gates, Dillon stopped when he saw Jordan coming towards him. He grinned and waved and started back to meet him. But before he got there, four others closed around Jordan and turned him in the other direction. Damm.

They, he supposed, must've been the rest of Jordan's Tight Five. Two boys were on either side of him, one with medium-length sandy-blond hair and the other with longer, very-blond, almost white, hair. They'd be Ashton Morris and Gene Crestani. Lucas Breene walked close behind and a small girl with a big mane of dark hair, led the way. The Tight Five went through the milling mob of kids like a flying wedge on a rugby paddock.

'Damm.' Dillon thought. 'They do bloody think they bloody own him! How am I supposed to talk to him if I can't get near? Sod them anyway.'

“What's the matter, Sweet Thing? Got a guts-ache?”

“What? Oh. Hi, Tess. My guts is fine, thanks.”

“Why've you got a face like thunder then?”

“Because I'm pissed!”

“Not at me, I hope.”

“No, never at you. You're a mate, Tess.”

“Who's upsetting you then”

“That lot.” He looked around but couldn't see them. “Oh. They've gone and taken him with them.”

“Who have gone and who have they taken with them.”

“Jordan Houston and his friends. He calls them the Tight Five.”

“Oh, them. Of course they have. Little Jordan used to get pushed around a bit, years ago. Now the others don't let anyone bother him; they're all very protective of him.

“But what if he wants to be bothered? He's not that fragile, is he”

“I dunno. Go ask him, if you can get close to him, but you'll be lucky.”

“Yeah, I'm starting to think that.”

“Going home?”

“Guess so. There's not much else to do.”

“Cool, I'll walk with you then.”

Next day, back at school, he saw Jordan around, they had most classes together, but even though he wanted to, Dillon couldn't get closer to him. He knew the Kid was keen on knowing him too, or at least he hoped he did.

Their eyes met sometimes and, once or twice, Jordan flashed a small grin before his bodyguards closed in around him and took him away. Again. What did they think he was going to do, kill him or something?

Dillon wanted to talk to Jordan. He liked the kid and he hoped he'd made a new friend, but it looked like his over-protective mates didn't want him to be friends with anyone but them.

'Stuff them anyway!'

He was still going to keep on trying. He hated being frustrated like this and he figured that the boy was worth knowing even if he was surrounded by jealous dumb-arses. He try again in the lunch-hour when there was more time.

That didn't work out so good. Dillon was late getting outside because he was held-up by some girls who wanted to know if he was going to Jess Moran's party on Friday night? (Which he was not, he hadn't been invited. He was a little bit popular, but not that much.)

When he escaped from them, he walked outside and couldn't see the Tight Five anywhere around. They'd gone. Dammit.

He sat outside the Library to eat his lunch. Was that what he thought it was? It was. Someone was in the Music Room playing, not-very-good, metal music, so it was most likely them – the Tight Five, musicians unextraordinary.

He slipped quietly into the Music Room and stood leaning against the back wall. The Tight Five were up on the small stage, playing, fooling around, insulting each other and laughing a lot. Yeah, he thought, they were definitely more about having fun together.

The blond boy, Ashton, was different to the others. He stood a bit apart, off to one side and concentrating on his guitar. But even he looked up and grinned sometimes at the other's antics.

The girl, Cat, saw Dillon there. She stopped singing and stood staring at him. The others all faltered and stopped, looking where she was looking. Ashton was the last to stop.

“What d'you want?” Lucas Breene scowled.

“I . . ah.” It was hard to speak-up with everyone staring. Jordan was smiling, but he was the only one who was. “Jordan said that you guys were a group. I heard you from outside and thought – I wanted to watch and see what you were like.”

“Now you have. You're not welcome here, Kirkwood – bugger off and stay away from our Jordie.”

“Oh?” Dillon bristled. “He's your Jordan, is he?”

“He is,” said the Cat. “Ours and not yours. Go away now.”

“Don't you get any say in this, Jordan?”

Jordan looked a bit embarrassed, he wasn't smiling now. “No. Umm, well yeah, of course I do, but. . . It's not a good time, Dillon. We're practising here. I'll talk to you later.”

Gene Crestani said, “No you won't. You keep away from him, Jordie. We all know what he's after.” He looked over at Dillon. “It's our job to keep the perverts away from our mate. Fuck off, Kirkwood.”

“A pervert now, am I?”

Ashton said, “If it looks like a duck and walks like a duck, chances are it is one.”

“Yeah, chances are,” The Cat agreed. “We've seen it before and it's not happening again. Goodbye.”

“Well, I . . Damm! I'm not one of them!” Red-faced, he stormed out and slammed the door.

Screw them anyway. They were the quacking ones, not him. Who the Hell did they think they were? Who did they think he was? No, that was obvious,. But they were wrong. He was no perv and he didn't want to hurt anyone – except maybe them now. Fuck 'em!

That night, lying in bed when he should've been sleeping, but wasn't, he was still mad about that scene at lunchtime. Angry and embarrassed, Dillon decided, to hell with it. He liked Little Jordan and he'd enjoyed their talk up in the tree, but was it worth it? No, it was not.

He wasn't going to try any more. All he'd wanted was to spend some more time getting to know the kid and, hopefully, making a new friend, and look what happened!

As individuals, each of them seemed like they were okay, even Breene was. But as a group, they were just too much. The Tight Five were well-named. They were so tight there was no room for anyone else. Okay, he was giving up.

You'd think that having made a decision his mind would settle-down and he could go to sleep. But, no. He lay there and tried to think about anything else, but it was hours before he finally drifted off.

He woke in the morning at the usual time, habits and routines are hard to break, and he went off to school tired, grumpy and in a foul mood.

It didn't help when he saw Houston break away from the group of kids he was talking to and turn towards him, obviously ready to talk.

None of the rest of the Tight Five was anywhere around, but they wouldn't be far away. The last thing he wanted was a repeat of the scene in the Music Room, especially not out in front of the school with the whole world watching.

He had to pass close to where he was standing, in front of the main entrance to the school, and he got a big smile from Houston when he walked past.

“Hey, Dillon. How's it going?”

“Good enough,” he grunted and kept going.

Maybe Jordan hadn't got the message, but he had – they were not allowed to be friends. The Tight Five didn't approve. He latched-on to Tess, went to class with her and stayed close to her and away from Jordan Houston and his bodyguards all morning.

He lost his cover at lunchtime. Tess had to leave the school. She was going shopping with her mother, and then had a dentist's appointment, so she wouldn't be back.

“Okay. Say hello to Mum for me.”

“I will and I'll see you tomorrow. Dillon, whatever's going on between you and Jordan Houston needs to be sorted or it'll drive you nuts.”

“What d'you mean? Nothing's going on.”

“Yeah, right! I'm not blind you know. The pair of you have been sneaking looks at each other all morning. For your own sake, sort it. 'Bye Dillon.”

“Bye, Tess.”

He watched her walk away and thought, 'Damm, am I that obvious? I'll stop looking then.'

He went and sat outside the Library to eat his lunch alone. That didn't work out either.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Brownsville Tales - Jordan



(Thanks Baruch)

Brownsville High's annual athletics day was held at the end of Febuary each year, for some strange reason.

Actually, there were good reasons for holding it then. First, it was still close to the start of the year and so was a good chance for the students to show what they could do and for the Phys Ed teachers to rate them. Second, holding it at the same time each year meant that conditions were roughly the same each year; which was fair on current and previous record-holders. Third, it was a chance for a collective day off after the grind of settling down and beginning another year's work.

The day was a good bonding exercise for the student body and the weather, pretty much, was guaranteed to be fine.

'Fine for some.' Dillon frowned at the group of 'supervising' teaching staff sitting comfortably in the shade under the wide verandah roof around the sports pavilion. It was all right for them, they didn't have to bake in the sunshine and run around all day, sweating their rings out.

It was still the middle of freakin' summer and, and as far he was concerned, it was a seriously dumb-arse time to be holding an outdoor sports meeting. Winter would make more sense, but then, he frowned at the staff again, some people wouldn't be keeping warm by burning calories.

He glanced up, briefly, at the wicked sun beaming down. 'A bit of rain would be nice.' Even some cloud cover would be better than this. This was bloody torture.

The next event on their schedule was the 1500 meters, long distance race. In this heat, that was just too long – too long and too much. He'd done enough running around in the sun. Now was the time to sit and cool off a bit. 'That'd be cool!'

He grinned at his own, weak, joke and looked enviously at the teachers. They were sitting there like bosses on a cotton plantation while the slaves toiled in the sunshine. So not fair!

Outside the pavilion wasn't the only shaded area. He glanced over at the line of old trees at the back of the playing fields. All he had to do was to get in under the lower branches and he'd be out of sight and home free. They could keep their bloody buggery races, he'd had enough.

The discus, shot-put and hammer throws were still dragging on. He'd bombed-out there ages ago and he didn't care.

He stood up, did a few half-hearted stretching exercises, and then, without saying anything to anyone, started jogging slowly around the outside track. Anyone watching would think that he was warming-up for the big race, he hoped.

He wasn't the only one doing it so, hopefully, no-one would take any notice of him.

He stuck to the outside of the track and, when he came close to the trees, he stopped for a 'breather', leaning forward with his legs wide-spread and his hands on his thighs. He sat down on the grass.

Damm, even the ground was hot! No-one was looking at him. He lay on his back, and then quickly rolled over and into the dark shade below the trees.

The bottom branches didn't quite reach to the ground, they were about a meter clear of it. Lying on the bare ground, he could see everyone out there but, hopefully, they couldn't see him there in the shade. The glorious shade! It was better, but still not very cool in there. There wasn't a breath of wind and it was hot and stuffy everywhere.

'What a dumb day for a sports meet.'

It felt like it was the hottest day of the year.

There was no undergrowth at all in there, not even a single blade of grass. The only covering on the hard dry ground was a layer of litter – years of fallen leaves, small dead branches and the occasional round cone. Macrocarpas are like that, they don't like competition and they kill everything trying to grow below them. That's probably why groundsmen like them for borders – less maintainance to be done around them.

'It wouldn't hurt to rake all this stuff up. It's all so dry, it must be a fire hazard. One match and there'd be a raging inferno in here. However, not my problem.'

He had no matches on him anyway. There was nowhere to put them in the silly little sports-shorts that he was wearing. He crawled further back in and sat leaning back against a trunk, with his eyes closed, enjoying the relief from the heat.

He didn't know what it was, but some strange noise made him snap his eyes open again.

There was a small patch of colour up in the tree, a few meters above him. What? Someone's sports clothes thrown up in the branches? Why?

Puzzled, he stood up, then grabbed the branch above him to pull himself up for a closer look. Yes, it was sports clothes that he'd seen, but they weren't just thrown up there. Someone was wearing them.

There was somebody up there, sitting in the branches. He wasn't the first one to have the brilliant idea of hiding in here then. But who? He couldn't see.

He climbed right up and, carefully, stood on the branch, keeping one steadying hand on the trunk next to him. Okay, he was still not sure, so he climbed up on to the next branch, and the next, and pulled himself up next to the boy sitting there.

“Midget! What're you doing up here?”

Jordan Houston looked around and, if looks could kill he'd be in trouble. So that was what a 'look of disdain' looked like. Without saying a word, Houston made him feel like he was the little one – little and stupid.

“I mean, umm, well . . you're obviously here for the same reason that I am – escaping from the torturers out there But why climb up in the tree?”

“If you half a brain, you'd work it out for yourself. They can see you when you're sitting on the ground. Dimwit.”

“Dimwit?”

“Fuckwit then. That fits better actually.” He got up and stood on the branch without even holding on to anything.

Dillon was impressed. If he tried that, he'd be down on the ground and hurting by now. He glanced down and nodded. 'Hurting all over, probably.'

He looked up again at the boy standing above him. “You've got good balance. If I tried that, I'd be flat on my arse on the ground.”

“Do it then. I could do with a laugh.”

“Hey! Don't be like that, Midget.”

“Go fuck yourself, Kirkwood.” He reached up, grabbed the branch above him and, with two jerks, stood up on that one.

Then he began climbing higher up, walking around the tree like he was on a spiral staircase. He had to duck and weave around some twigs, but basically the branches grew out of the tree in a spiral. Dillon hadn't realised that, but then, he'd never spent a lot of time up in trees. This kid obviously had, he was quite at home here, comfortable and good at it too.

“Hey, wait. Where're you going?”

“Anywhere away from you.” He kept climbing.

Dillon was puzzled and a bit pissed. What the hell was wrong with him? He was an okay sort of person, wasn't he? He had a lot of friends and some good ones too. He got along with most people and was not used to being hated – not like this.

What the hell was up with the Midget? They'd never been close, but he'd seen him around a lot, always laughing and joking. He wasn't grinning now. Why not? What had he done?

There was one good thing about all this. Houston might be mad at him and running away, but he was going up, not down. Sooner or later, he was going to have to come down again. Only problem was – it might be later.

Once everyone out there had finished sweating in the sun, they'd be going back to school and those who were not there would be missed. He didn't have a perfect record, but it was pretty good and he didn't want to get in trouble – or cause Houston to either.

There was only one thing to do then. He started climbing – going up to make things right with the kid. Hopefully.

Going up the tree was nowhere near as easy as Houston had made it look. Even following the spiral of the branches, it was hard work. But, he was careful, slow and steady, and he got there.

The tree was getting smaller. The branches thinned-out and the trunk was starting to sway. That'd look funny from the outside; there was no wind at all out there. He climbed up to where the other boy was stopped and glaring down at him.

“Damm. I'm not as good at this as you are. You made it look easy.”

“Just fuck off, will ya!”

“Don't be like that. I want to talk.”

“Tough! I don't want to talk to you. Not now, not ever. Fuck off and leave me alone. Come any closer and I'll boot you in the face.”

“You really don't like me, Jordan? Why not? I'm a good guy.”

“Says who?”

“Well, there's my mum. She likes me.”

“She has to. That's her job, innit? It's not mine and I don't, so fuck off!”

“If you want me to, I will. But first, tell me why you don't like me. I've never done anything to you, have I?”

“You have.”

“What then? Tell me and I'll apologise.”

Jordan glared down at the big, brown, puppy-eyes pleading up at him. His face softened and he sighed. “All right then. You called me 'Midget' and I hate that. I hate it and I hate anyone who says it and I hate you.”

“Oh. Sorry. I didn't know it upset you that much. I just thought it was a name that people called you. I won't do that again. Sorry.”

Dillon waited but there was no answer, so now he sighed, turned away and started climbing back down, slowly and carefully. “I'll leave you alone now.”

Jordan watched him and thought, 'Sorry? Yeah, I think you are. Maybe I was a bit harsh, you seem like a good guy. Only one way to find out.'

“Kirkwood, wait. Stop there, I'm coming down.” He skitted down to where Dillon was and sat on a branch next to him. “They'll be a few minutes before they're finished out there. Sit down and talk to me.”

“Okay, sure!” Dillon lost the worried look and a smile lit-up his face. He sat down, carefully keeping one hand on the trunk. “What do we talk about?”

“About you, for a start,” Jordan grinned. “All I know is that you haven't been in town very long and your name is Kirkwood. Tell me more – what's your proper name, where are you from and why are you here?”

“Okay. I'm called Dillon, we came from Christchurch a few months ago when my parents split-up. Mum's got a job here, she's a receptionist and medical assistant at the dentist's.”

“Sooner her than me,” Jordan grimaced. “So are you earthquake refugees?”

“Not really. Our house was okay – a lot better than most. A chimney came down through the roof and there was some liquification in the driveway, but that was all. But, yeah., I suppose we are refugees in a way.

We didn't lose the house and shit, but the stress probably helped break-up the family. It's happening a lot and thousands of people are getting out of there.”

“They'll go back in time. Things will settle down and there'll be heaps of jobs there soon – they've got a city to rebuild.”

“I suppose. I'm glad we're out anyway. It's nice to walk into a building and know it's not going to fall down on you.”

“Ah, but do you know that? Earthquakes can happen anywhere, anytime and the experts say that we're overdue for a big one here.”

“Oh, great! Thanks for that. Here I was thinking that we're safe now.”

“You most likely are safe, for now. Christchurch will be the safest place in the country now the pressure has all gone. It'll take years for it to build-up again for the next big one”

“If the pressure has all gone. Nobody knows if they're finished. Let's talk about something else. How about you? You're a local?”

“Well,” Jordan shrugged. “Almost a local. I wasn't born here, we moved down from Nelson when I was a baby. Dad's a driver at the mine and Mum works, part-time, commercial cleaning. I've got one sister – Kate. She's 12 and bigger than me. Have you got siblings?”

“No, no brothers ever and no sisters now.” Dillon's face fell.

There was obviously a story there, and not a good one. He looked upset, almost like he was going to cry, so Jordan changed the subject. “What are you doing, hiding away in the trees here? I thought a big, strong kid like you would be really into sports.”

“Yeah, sometimes I am, “ he grinned again and shrugged. “But not now. It's too dammed hot out there and I've had enough of it. Why are you here? Not the sporty type?”

“Hardly! I'm not built for it, am I? With these arms and legs, people run all over me and I get sick of losing, so I get out of it whenever I can.”

“Fair enough, I guess. Can't you get a note from a doctor to say that you can't play sports? Then you wouldn't have to hide.”

“A doctor? Watch it, Mate. I'm not sick, I'm just little.”

“Yeah. You are that. You're small for your age.”

“Only on the outside. What sort of music are you into?”

“Music? All sorts, I guess. I like metal – Megadeath, Asking Alexandria, Chelsea Grin, that sort of thing.”

“All right! You've got good taste. That's our sort of music.” Jordan beamed his cheeky grin.

“Our music? You and who else?”

“Us, of course – the Tight Five. We've got a group. Do you play anything?”

“Me? No, just play the fool, sometimes. What do you play?”

“I'm on drums. If you say 'Little Drummer Boy', I'm outta here!”

“O – kay. Am I allowed to think it?”

“Thnk what you want. Just don't say it.”

“I won't then. Who else is in your group?”

“Ashton Morris is our star. He's on lead guitar and he's really, really good. Gene Crestani is rythym guitar and Lucas Breene on bass.”

“That makes four. Why call yourselves the Tight Five?”

“Because we are – very tight. It's a rugby expression, the Tight Five are the front row – the Hooker, two Props and two Locks.”

“But you've only got four.”

“No, there's five. The Cat does vocals.”

“And the Cat is?”

“Caitlyn Sawyer. She's our mate too.”

“So one of your mates is a girl. Is your group any good?”

“No. We're just crap really, apart from Ashton, he's good. We have a lot of fun and it's something to do.”

“Fair enough. I hope I get to hear you play sometime.”

“You can if you want. We're entering the Smokefree Rockquest this year – we won't win but it'll be an experience.”

“You're not exactly over-confident.”

“Yeah I am – confident that we'll lose, and we will. As long as we have fun, that's what matters.”

“I guess so. Good luck anyway.”

They sat up in the tree and talked, both enjoying themslves until they had to cut it short. Someone was running around out there, blowing a whistle like a mad thing. The sports day was over, it was time to get down and go back to school.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Brownsville, JJ Erickson & Jordan

(Another interlude. Tidied up, thanks to Tracy)

'Another day older and deeper in debt.' JJ Erickson walked downtown after school was over for the day.

It was a fair way to walk, but easy going because it was mostly downhill. Going back home would be another story! Still, it was a nice day and it's good to get some exercise and fresh air after being stuck in a classroom all day.

The walk was more from necessity than choice, he had no car and his bike was out of action, he needed a new tube for the back wheel. That was one reason he was going downtown, the other was that his mother wanted him to pick up her prescription from the chemist's.

It was hardly fair that he had to walk while her car was sitting at home doing nothing. She wouldn't let him use it, she never did. He'd never been allowed her car again after the night he and a crowd of dumb-arse mates had taken it out joy-riding and got it stuck in the gravel-pit down on the riverbed.

Apparently, stunt cars in the movies were special ones and not just little ladies' runabouts. By the time they found a 4-wheel drive and a driver willing to pull them out, (not easy to do at 2 in the morning), the tide had come in and the car was swamped in muddy water.

He was days scrubbing it out after that and the car was never the same again. That happened 10 years ago! He was 14 then and now he was 24, but, apparently, 'banned for life' means banned for life.

His mother wasn't a bad old stick really, but she had an unforgiving streak and a very long memory.

“Oh well'” he sighed. 'Consequences. They never occur to teenagers.' They certainly didn't to him. All part of being a risk-taking teen, he guessed.

Speaking of which, there was a good example right there! A boy on a bike came racing around the corner and off down the road ahead. He was trailing a rope and towing one of those small-wheeled, kid's scooters. Sitting on that, without even holding on, was little Jordan Houston, smiling and waving like a king in his carriage.

'Silly little bugger!' John shook his head. He'd have to stop thinking about how small Jordan was; that was not fair on the kid, there was more to him than that.

People, especially young ones, came in all shapes and sizes. Some of them were overweight, some could do with more. There were dark ones, fair ones, tall and short. Some, probably most of them, fell somewhere in the middle and they all grew at different rates and times. And then there was Jordan Houston – in a class of his own.

Jordan was not just short, he was tiny, like a little boy-doll, almost. He made short kids look tall. He was not a dwarf, everything was in perfect proportions. A very nice, and cheeky, looking boy actually, when you could see him under that mop of hair. But he was little, at least 14 years old now and about the size of an 8 or 9 year old.

He was bright enough, full of fun and mischief and often in trouble because of it. He was not the most popular boy in the school, but not the least either. He had some good close friends and he was, all-round, a normal kid, apart from the size – or lack of it.

Always up for a joke, he was happy, laughing and easy-going, usually. The one thing that really got him mad was when people called him, 'Midget'. He HATED that and let them know in no uncertain terms. If he'd learn to ignore them it wouldn't be so much fun and they'd move on to someone else, but he didn't.

Watching them disappear down the hill ahead of him, John was thinking that Jordan's small stature wasn't all bad. A bigger kid wouldn't ride so comfortably, sitting on the scooter like that. Part of him thought that it looked like fun, but the adult side of him thought that it was bloody dangerous.

Still in his school clothes, his bare arms and legs were a scant few centimeters above the rough road surface. Also, he'd be easily overlooked down there. Motorists tended to focus on car-sized objects. If anything happened, he'd be smeared across the road in a bloody mess! They were going too fast and, if John knew anything about kids, they'd be going even faster at the foot of the hill.

Jordan Houston would be getting a lecture next time he was talking to him.

John was delayed when walking passed the Convenience Store. Two women came out of there and accosted him. One of them was the mother of a girl in Year 10, and the other was her aunt. They were concerned about the sudden change for the worse in their girl.

Overnight, almost, she'd changed from a delightful child to a surly, rebellious teenager. Her mother was sure she didn't know what to do with her.

John said, “Julie is in Year 10, is she 14 then?”

“She is,” the mother replied. “She turned 14 a couple of weeks ago. Is she getting into bad company at school? Is that what's causing it?”

“No, not that I know of. I don't know Julie very well, I usually only teach boys' classes now, but, from what I can see, she's just a normal teenager. It's fairly normal behaviour you're describing, they all go through these phases. There's not a lot anyone can do, except wait. She'll come through it. 99.9% of them do.

The best you can do is to keep on loving her and the less lovable she is, the more she needs it. You've been lucky, the switch-over usually happens at around 13. The only thing different about Julie is that she's starting late.”

“Thanks. I suppose we'll just have to hope that she is not late coming out the other side as well.”

“I guess so. There's some very good books on child-development in the town library. I suggest you check them out. Don't worry, she'll be okay. I was a rotten teenager myself, I came through it.”

“Yes you did, John Erickson,” the aunty nodded. “I remember when you were a harum-scarum kid, always in trouble. This is a small town.”

“It is!” John laughed. “A small town with a long memory. Sometimes I wonder why I came back here. My mother still thinks I'm a kid.”

“She probably always will, but she must be proud of you too. You've made something of yourself and you're a good man. I never thought that would happen!”

“I think, not many people did,” he smiled.

“Maybe not, but they were wrong. I don't know if it's respect exactly, but I know that the kids like you a lot.”

“Probably because it's mutual. I like them too, on the whole.”

An ambulance, lights flashing and siren wailing, came racing around the corner and down the hill ahead of them. They stopped and watched it going, as you do.

One lady said, “Someone's in trouble.”

The second one said, “Looks like it, but I always prefer to think, 'Help is on its way.'”

John thought, 'Jordan! Fuck, I hope it's not you that they're racing to.'

He hoped it wasn't, but he wouldn't be at all surprised – riding that scooter like that. Those small wheels were never meant to go at that speed. The way they'd come around the corner, with the scooter swinging out wide and almost catching up to the bike – well, anything could happen and it could be nasty.

Damm, he hoped it wasn't him. He hoped it wasn't any kids he knew, but obviously, it was somebody in trouble. The ambulance wouldn't be tearing down the road like that unless they had a good reason to.

“Well, Ladies, I better be moving on. Don't worry about Julie, she'll be okay.”

“I hope you're right, John, and thanks. You have a good day now.”

“Thanks. You do to. 'Bye.”

He strode off down the road, crested the top of the hill and could see, away in the distance down at the bottom, the ambulance had stopped, there were 2 police cars there and a crowd of curious ghouls had gathered already. 'Never takes long.'

He was too far away to see any more with all the people in the way. The police seemed to be pushing them back, and fair enough too. They weren't helping.

He hurried anxiously down the road. It might not be Jordan there, he hoped, but it could well be him. He wished now that he'd stopped them as soon as he'd seen them and before anything happened.

But, would they have listened to him anyway? Probably not – they weren't in school and he had no authority over them after hours. (Didn't have much when they were there either!)

Before he was even halfway there, the ambulance started again, went around the roundabout, came back up the hill and disappeared behind him, towards the hospital. The police cars moved away, the crowd was dispersing and traffic started moving, until a freight train rumbled over the crossing and stopped them again.

He hurried down the sidewalk, not running, but getting out of breath anyway. He was so unfit! Something was going to have to be done about that, but not now.

He met up with an old guy he'd seen leaving the scene, stopped and asked him, “Mr. Wilkins, what happened there?”

“I'm not too sure. Some kid got knocked off his bike, I think. Something like that. It was all over before I got there.”

“Some kid? Who was he, did you hear?”

“No, sorry. Like I said, I was late.”

“Did you see him at all? What did he look like?”

“I don't know. All I saw was the stretcher going into the ambulance. They slammed the doors and left. Story of my life really, I think I must have been born late.”

“Oh. Well, someone must know. Thanks, Mr. Wilkins – be seeing you.”

“Yes, you will. Goodbye, young John.”

Down in the town area, he went first to the bike shop, because it was furtherest away, and then back to the chemist's. No-one he spoke to could tell him any more about the accident than what he already knew. Which was not a lot.

He couldn't believe how blithely uninterested everyone was. If it didn't affect them personally, they didn't care much. That was SO not right – the Heartless Buggers!

He didn't know how affected he was, but he was worried. If it was a kid, then, chances were, it was somebody from the school. Damm, he hoped it wasn't Jordan.

It wasn't Jordan. Lost in thought, he came out of the chemist shop and literally walked into him.

“Oops, sorry. Jordan! Oh thank God it's you. You okay, Boy?”

“I think I'll live,” Jordan grinned up at him, peering through his over-long fringe. “You didn't hit me that hard. But why are you glad that it's me you banged into?”

“No. I'm not glad about that. I'm just happy to see you.”

“Aren't you always?”

“Not always, no, but sometimes.”

“Why now then?”

“There was an accident, up by the roundabout. A kid was hurt, I was worried that it was you.”

“Well it wasn't. It was Gordie Berry. He's a bit of a mess, but he'll live. Why would you think it was me, Mr. E?”

“Ask yourself, Jordan. Why would I be worried that you'd been hurt when you'd just gone racing past me, sitting on a scooter and being towed by a bike?”

“I don't know. Why?”

“Why? Because it was a bloody silly thing to do and dangerous too!”

“Dangerous? Yeah, I guess. It was fun though, fun and fast. Trouble is, bloody Gene's gone now and he took my scooter with him. Swine! Now I've gotta walk all the way back home. Unless some kind teacher is going to give me a ride?”

“A kind teacher. Is there such a creature?”

“Come to think of it, probably not.”

“Don't flash your big calf's eyes at me, Boy. That won't work. I'd give you a ride home if I could, but I'm walking too.”

“Walking back home now, Mr. E? Okay, I'll walk with you. We live in the same street.”

“I know that. You're just 3 doors past ours.”

“Yeah. Way too close, I think.”

“Enough cheek out of you! Jordan, don't go riding your scooter like that again. That could just as easily have been you being scraped off the road. At the speed you were going, it could've even killed you.”

“You think? Okay, we won't do that again. Next time, I'll make Gene bloody slow down. I'll throw out an anchor or something.”

“Next time? I hope there is no next time.”

“Ah! Live in hope, don't you, Mr. E?”

They walked together, back up the road and to the side-street where their homes were, chatting, laughing and growling all the way. John was thinking how much he liked this kid. It wasn't that many years ago that he was a teen himself and he still knew something of their world. Jordan, once you got past the cheek, was a thoroughly nice kid and easy to have an almost-adult conversation with.

They'd just rounded the corner into their street when a big, rough, old van, pulsing the usual crappy music that all the boy-racers played, pulled in next to them. It was an ominous, evil-looking thing, painted black and with black windows.

John thought, 'Who'd drive something like that, and why?'

Jordan obviously knew and he was delighted. “Bomber!” he exclaimed. “See ya, Mr. E. I've got a ride home now!”

“But you only live 6 doors up the street.”

“Yeah, I know. But it's Bomber and the Sex Machine! Total coolness. See ya.” He jumped into the passenger's side.

The door slammed, the van took off with a roar and a squeal of tyres, and disappeared around the corner up the street.

'Bomber? Sex Machine?' John smiled ruefully, shook his head and went home.

He stepped over the front gate and Peter was sitting on the steps outside the house, “fixing” his bike, as usual. He'd be better off if he'd just leave the bloody thing alone and stop tinkering with it.

“Peter, who is Bomber, do y'know? He drives a big black van. Jordan Houston just jumped in and went off with him.”

“In the Sex Machine?” Peter grinned. “Lucky Midget!”

“You shouldn't call him that. You know he doesn't like it.”

“Doesn't like it? He hates it; that's what makes it fun!”

“Don't do it anyway. Should I be concerned about him going off like that?”

“Nah. He'll be all right. Might even get lucky!”

“Peter! Who is this 'Bomber' guy?”

“It's not a guy – Bomber's a girl.”

“Really? Bomber is a girl, driving around in the Sex Machine?”

“Yeah. You can stop worrying, Bro. Bomber is okay. She's all talk really. She only comes back here to see Dave Fortune. The Mid . .. okay, Jordan, is just a friend. No-one's going to molest him. Eww. That'd be like doing a little kid!”

“Oh. Just a friend then. That's good. Thanks, Peter.” He brushed past him and went inside.